To my son, I'm "mom", "Mommy", "Maman."
To my daughter I'm that lady who comes into her room with a big smile, changes her diaper, gives her a bottle, dresses her up and plays with her.
I'm the one who gets them ready to go places, I play with them, I am the 'time-out' setter, I'm their mom.
With all the ups, and the downs...no matter what comes my way, I love it.
But today, after chatting with an old friend, I realised something...I'm letting my 'non-mom' life slip away from me...and that is something I cannot let happen.
Sure my kids are my life, and I'm blessed to have friends who understand this. They respect the fact that I don't take calls between 7 and 8:30 p.m. (due to bed times). They respect and understand that my youngest child would be coming with me when we went places (as I wasn't ready to leave her...just yet)
and I love and respect them for their understanding...and I know for them, it can be frustrating.
They also understand that I have a 'time frame' of when it's best for me to go, and be back by. I love them for this, and hopefully they know this...(if not, they know now)
Anyhow...I called a very very old friend...we try to meet up at least once every few months. The last time I saw her...my daughter was a few weeks old (my daughter is now nearly four months old). I saw her for about 20 min, we chatted for a bit and she had to go pick up her brother.
Since then, I haven't chatted with her...and I realised today that I really missed our conversations, etc.
I called her and it was like for five minutes, I could be me...not 'mom, mommy, or maman'
So we have plans for next week and I'm looking forward to this. Sure it will be hard, as I think I'm ready to leave my young daughter with my parents (this will be a first) but we'll have to wait and see if I can. If I cannot, she already told me she understands if the little one is with us.
Speaking of leaving her...I have left her with others (my parents or inlaws) when I've had no other choice, but this is my choice...and I think I'm ready to just let everything go for an afternoon and have a chance to be 'me' and for a few moments, to leave the title of "mommy, mom, and maman" behind.
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Sunday, July 18, 2010
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